Welcome to my site.
This will be the site I fill with things that I like and random posts/game ramblings that are too long for Bluesky.
This will be the site I fill with things that I like and random posts/game ramblings that are too long for Bluesky.
I posted about this... wait, two days ago? I think it was two days ago. And I didn't explode. Yippee. I hate talking about myself in general so maybe having a site that like 5 people will read and I can put all my unfiltered thoughts is a good thing.
At the end of the day, I just want to chat with people, play cool games, eat good food. I mean, yeah sure there's other personal goals here and there (I kind of laughed when I saw how much a few months of consistent exercise and the most mild dieting did for me, because frankly, holy shit??) but those are just kind of... going well without me putting much effort into it, you know? Things are good!
Literally, my only top of mind worry right now is that I want a voice I can be happy with. I am not there yet. I dunno how long it'll take to be there. It's an annoying feeling wanting to claw your own throat out when you talk but I'm hardly the only person dealing with that so I'm not gonna get too dramatic about it. It's just a thought.
I do feel a little bit spoiled. About the only really "bad" thing to happen to me since shit kicked off was having someone basically completely out me to a server with 100 people against what I thought were pretty explicit instructions. (Weird how "hey don't correct anyone on what to call me" turned into "actually, definitely make sure to link my stream to the entire server which clearly indicates I'm now openly trans and while making sure to use different pronouns than what everyone else knows me as", but hey, m-maybe there was some kind of misunderstanding there??? Yeah, probably not...). And I just simply don't talk to the person responsible for that anymore because I clearly can't trust them, so that's done, no longstanding drama or feuding or whatever. I initially worried I was overreacting but then I stewed about for a bit and realized it was a pretty fucked up violation of my privacy, so...
That's about it. Honestly this is 90% to test that I know how to make a new post without blowing something up lmfao. Maybe sometime next week I'll talk about some other less exciting things I've been playing (think like short little mini-paragraph write-ups, maybe one screenshot per game max) if there's anything fun to say about them. I also need to make a funny lil button for the site because I understand that's the good and proper thing to do with your site. The people yearn for little buttons that link to your page. I like little buttons. It's a perfect fit. OK BYE
Hi. I’m the idiot formerly known as Jowy. This post was initially written a while ago (about two months!) and back then I hadn't started changing my handles anywhere... but... we're past that now, so I rewrote some things. In short, now I just go by Fiora. But it's cool if people call me Fi or Fio or whatnot because nicknames are cool, imho.
Anyway, I'm apparently easily convinced to do stuff that seems like it might be vaguely fulfilling in a way, so here we are making my own little Neocities page. Sort of like how I was maliciously tricked into taking better care of myself and had an epiphany and decided to get the whole transitioning thing over with. Granted, I made the very unique decision to do that at like 2 AM while playing Lagoon for the X68000, so now I have that as my legacy, but... oh well??? It's pretty funny tbh.
After that, I made the decision to get into vtubing. I like playing video games, I like old games, I like interesting niche stuff, and I sure do enjoy talking to people while playing them. Yeah, sure, the anime woman avatar part is pretty appealing too in the wake of recent life changes, you don't gotta point that one out to me, I'm well aware!!! Four-ish later? It's fun. I'm happy doing it. Some day I'll have a model I can truly call my own (not to disparage the one I'm using!! it's just one anyone could use if they bought it on Booth!!) but there's plenty of time for that. The fact that I can have 15 people chilling out as some complete nobody while I play random ass things like Belzerion or Assault Suits Valken is cool to me.
I really am grateful for those who come to watch, regardless of whether they're just chilling and lurking or chatting. (Sorry for everyone having to suffer the woes of me trying to get better at the whole streaming thing... sorry... sorry... lmao)
It's been nice. I've met a lot of very chill and very funny people in the past few months or so. I won't name names because I think the psychic damage I'd suffer if any of them read anything I said here and repeated it to my face would be too much to bear. Sorry, I have a very low defense stat and the two worst things that can happen to me are someone directly saying something nice about me to my face or worse, having someone know I said something nice about them and then repeating it back to me... it's painful... ooogh
It also sort of makes me regret taking so long to do anything new with my life, but, eh. No time to worry about that, you know? Gotta make the most of life going forward even if I'll still do the "babe it's 1 AM it's time to think about how much more sick life could have been if you got your shit together 5+ years ago" thing.
I don't know where I was going with all of this but I figured it made sense to make a lil intro post before I commence with posting other dumb nonsense. I'll still be posting on BSky as usual, I'll be streaming for the foreseeable future, no big exciting plans at the moment or anything like that. That's about it. I'll probably start doing some small one paragraph write-ups of random stuff I've been playing this year that falls in the realm of 'this was kinda neat but I don't have strong emotions about it' versus the unhinged 2-3k word braindumping I do over on my Bearblog site when I really dig a game or want to talk about a niche title. I will likely post about this site Once over on Bluesky but I don't intend to directly link to this site very often/at all unless I do a particularly interesting write-up of something that doesn't fall under the realm of stuff I'd put over on the Mirage Library. Thanks for reading.